Brooklyne

This past week has been a bit hard for our family. Someone very close to me lost their baby this week, she was 7 months pregnant. Today we went to a funeral service for little Brooklyne.  She was a gorgeous baby and i will miss being able to watch her grow and develop. Our families prayers are constant for these parents. I cannot imagine the grief they are going through... i am glad i can't imagine it. And i wish i knew how to comfort them more! I know that being LDS i have always been told how comforting it is to know we can see our loved ones again, and for me that has always been the case until now. When i lost my grandparents, and even a friend in highschool, i found that thought very comforting. But i have to admit i have gone through a period of thinking " there is no way that is fair!". And to an extent i am still in it. I personally believe there was a little spirit already in this valentines day angel and that we just never got to meet her, and for that reason, i wonder. why? I don't have an answer. It's been a really hard thing for me to deal with. The news hit me harder than i thought it would. It took a good half hour and then i just broke down bawling. I think its mostly because i know that i could be in this situation next time, hopefully not, but maybe. I am reminded of how precious life is and it helps me be a bit more patient with Jackson, a bit more sweet to Bryan and just a better person. What a horrible thing that it took the loss of a precious being for me to strive to become better, but there you have it. We love you brooklyne and we can't wait to meet you one day!